I have been under the weather lately, having fought a flu-like bug or something similar. It’s the time of the year when most of us are vulnerable …. warm spring weather one day, below freezing the next. There is a phrase for those living in Wisconsin — Don’t like the weather? Wait a day.
This fluctuation is frustrating for my mental state as well. Like they say on Project Runway, One Day You’re In, the Next Day You’re Out.
Who knows where these quotes came from, but they are apropos for our lives.
I like to be up every day. Not necessarily up in the clouds up, but more of a good mood up. I hate wasting each 24 hours on fretting about things I can’t change, past mistakes, or misdirected choices of 50 years ago.
As if I can remember 50 years ago.
But, as you know, being full time positive is a full time job.. And it doesn’t take much to knock you off your path.
I used to thing age had something to do with it — like it was easier for youth to be upbeat and positive every day. Then I look back at the time when I was raising kids and working and there was a lot of stress back then, too. A lot of choices. A lot of futures to mold.
You would think being older and retired would be easier. Not always.
With my flu-like symptoms the past few days, my mind always wanders to cancer, tumors, heart disease, and a dozen other lethal conditions. I don’t really know why, except the odds of developing one condition or another multiplies as you age.
I don’t think I was that much of an extremist at 30 or 50. But then again, my body wasn’t as worn out as it is these days.
The point of today’s chat is to pay attention to symptoms but leave room to be positive every day. The world goes round and round no matter what you do. Except for stepping off a ten story building or jumping out of an airplane, your life is going to carry on no matter what you do, so why not choose a positive outlook as you go?
Do your best to ride the waves. If you feel sick, be sick. If you feel like walking through the woods, walk through the woods. No matter which direction you go, the yin and yang of life will bring you back to the starting point again and again.
Make an effort to hold on to the end. Do one thing every day that brings you joy and revel in the feeling of being alive.
Let’s ride this wavy bumpy road together for a long time to come.
As some of you may know, I lost my youngest son four years ago. Last Saturday I finally got a tattoo honoring him and my love for him.
Well, I’ve certainly not been bored lately. 
I was sitting out on my back deck this morning and noticed this little guy hanging on from the top branch of the tree.
At 6 AM everyday, I see an old man sitting alone in the park, sipping hot coffee from his Peet’s mug. He keeps his mask under his chin, and watches the birds flying above. I try to keep the social distance, tip-toe, and balance my steps with my foggy glasses and cotton masks. Yet I wonder why he is there, for months, at that time of the day, alone.
Humoring the Goddess 