You know — I’ve been thinking lately. Reflecting.
That usually means trouble. Confusion.
As I have been in an over-emotional mood lately, I reflected upon my past blogs. The upbeat, pro-creativity, happy-go-lucky blogs.
I realize — that truly is me. I truly believe in handling your own destiny. At least as much as life allows.
But I also wanted you to know that at times I’m an emotional trainwreck, too.
I have fears, inhibitions, and confusion just like you do. I have crabby days, doubtful days, days of wonder and of wondering.
How do you get through those days?
Don’t you sometimes want to drink a bottle, take some pills, stand in the middle of the yard and just scream?
We all know only one of those three really work. And the neighbors might wonder if they see you standing in the middle of your yard one night yodeling your brains out.
First off, I am not against anti-depressants, a glass of wine now and then, or professional therapy. Never be ashamed to go the next step to clear your head. I know I have.
But what if you are just going through the normal ups and downs of a busy, fulfilling life?
Waiting for change to happen is like waiting for water to turn to ice.
That makes me swing back to Creativity.
I dunno. I just feel better creating something. Discovering something. Researching something. Moving feels so much better than sitting still. Especially sitting still day after day, watching nothing but my derrière spread wider.
Doing something for myself gets me out of my funk and back into the land of the living.
I happen to love writing. And certain crafts. And photography. And walking through nature. And taking a drive through the county. And fetching my dog. The list goes on and on.
Your list should go on and on, too.
As I said earlier, there is depression and then there is depression. If you are suffering from unrelenting sadness, confusion, and stress, talk to someone. Professional or otherwise. Don’t try to handle the world alone.
If you suffer from an occasional up and down moment, accept it while moving forward. Paint a picture. Doodle a whole page of nonsense. Buy a few inexpensive flowering plants and dig a hole and plant them. Research something odd like auras or Alpha Centauri or Medieval life (I’ve researched all three). Watch a stupid movie. Build something cool from your kid’s Legos.
Find a way back to Creativity.
Admit the crabbies and move along back to what you were put on this Earth to do.