I think I am failing Crone 101.
For those of you who wonder, a crone is an older woman, wise in the ways of the world, confident in where she’s been and where she’s going. She is the accumulation of life’s ups and downs, and all that knowledge seems like magic to some.
I used to be more in a magic way. I didn’t cast spells or levitate glasses or dance naked before the bonfire (wouldn’t THAT have been a scene!). I was, am, a believer in the magic that is in each and every one of us. You can have magic and be Catholic or Lutheran or Baptist or Atheist. The magic inside is your soul. Your connection to this world, to the galaxy, and everything inbetween.
My husband works 3-4 nights a week. So I’m home alone, which, for me, is great, because I’m either writing or editing or doing nothing but watching a Chinese TV series. Well, last night was a big, bright, beautiful full moon. I didn’t really see it until it was over the treetops in my back woods. So I looked online and thought, “Hey! Even though the moon tonight will be 98.2 percent full, I can go out to the back gate and watch it rise!”
Now I’ve told you before that I have to cross a big wide “yard” and go down this little path through the dark woods until I get to the back gate that sits on a little road that lines a great big cornfield. Perfect moonwatching place.
I went out early. It was dusk outside, a nice cool spring breeze. So I stood at the back gate and realized I was 25 minutes early. Great. Then I start hearing things in the woods as it started to really get dark. Sticks falling down from the top of the trees, leaves blowing down the dirt path…all kinds of little things.
If you are a writer then you know where I’m going with this. It doesn’t take much to set my imagination off. And as it got dark and I’m waiting for moonrise I’m thinking of Slenderman who hides in the forest walking down the path towards me and I can’t get the gate open and he walks up to me and starts talking and waving those abnormally long arms around and I’m alone and even my dog is on the front deck so she’s no help but I have my phone but by the time I’d call my hubby or the police he could already have pulled out a knife and started slashing my legs so I couldn’t run and….
You see what I’m getting at. I worked myself up so much I decided to head back to the house and enjoy the moonrise through my locked back window. Now the chance of someone walking into my fenced woods is slim to none. But as I’ve said before in my blogs, I’m a little lady with no punch and too much imagination.
So back to my first thought. I wanted to welcome the full moon, wrap my Croneness around it, pull strength and wisdom from its moon rays, yada yada. It’s all a game but it makes me feel good.
Now I’m sitting inside, my magic rumbling that it didn’t get its true moon fix, and all I want to do is finish watching my Chinese war TV series.
What’s magical about that?
I think I’ll write a story about this. Maybe if I get this paranoia out of my system I can go watch the full moon rise next month. With my dog. And my husband. And my son. And a police officer. And a Navy SEAL….
Hahaha! It’s all in the mind, but te he mind is a powerful thing! I spook myself out a lot.
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Long long ago I became instantly brave with a two hour self defence course, and it stuck. It’s all in the mind. That was magic for human threats but now you’ve mentioned Slenderman I’m not so sure…
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You are such a good friend/blogger!
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I have included your blog in INTERESTING BLOGS in FRIDAY FOSSICKING at
https://thatmomentintime-crissouli.blogspot.com/2018/05/friday-fossicking-4th-may-2018.html
Thank you, Chris
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Oh thank you! I am sure every creative person gets carried away in their creative mind. You too!
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That’s lovely. Thought I was there too.
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It’s really exciting…until it gets real. I am always “afraid” of bigger men because Im 5 ft tall and achy and not very fast, so I’d make an easy target!
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My men are hunters and go into strange fields in the dark and are never bothered…me, on the other hand…but thank you my friend!
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Been there, done that! There’s nothing quite like a rampant imagination. It kind of amazes me that everybody doesn’t have these wild thoughts. Guess we’re the lucky ones!
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🌚🌔
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I think you are very brave !!!!
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AAAHHHHHAAAAHHH!!!
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My southern boys! Maybe it WAS a bad moon rising! And I saved myself from its disasters! (not really..but that would make a a good story too!)
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Glad to make you smile. I was laughing at myself as I scurried back up the hill. And I never did go back out to see the moon. Oh well…
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Haha, coincidently, this post was under yours in my reader.
https://fierykaleidoscope.wordpress.com/2018/04/30/april-2018-full-moon/
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Oh well, there’s always next time, for your bad-moon rising.
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Love this, you made me laugh.. and sympathise. “Good intentions build no houses” my father would say!
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