Not in the Mood

~ humoringthegoddess

Today is my birthday.

I’m not impressed.

I am planning on seeing all of my kids and grandkids and going out to dinner to celebrate. Who wouldn’t be excited about all of that?

It’s one thing to be excited about turning 21. or 30. I had a grand party when I turned 45, not wanting to wait until the big five-oh. Lots of people came and celebrated with me and signed a poster for posterity and it was a lot of fun.

It was also 24 years ago.

Why do people have to get old? Why do people have to get achy and forgetful and slower and not often wiser?

I ~do~ appreciate my life and friends and experiences and blah blah blah. I do. But I resent getting slower, both physically and mentally. I am doing all that others are telling me to do to keep sharp — eating well, going for walks, reading books, keeping creative.

But I don’t think any of it is working. Not in the long run.

Birthdays are rewards for having made it through things others have not. And for that I will be eternally grateful. I have lived long enough to love and play with my grandkids, go to my goddaughter’s wedding at a beach resort in Georgia, and to write a blog that some people really enjoy reading. I’ve written a number of books which have given me immense pleasure.

I could go on and on with the blessings in my life. We all could.

It just feels different viewing it from the half-empty side of the glass, knowing that there are fewer years ahead than behind. No matter how optimistic I am, the body aches and head aches and heart aches will persevere. 

The future will hold what the future will hold. Nothing I can say or do can change moving forward in time.

So I will do my best to party hearty and move along creaking and laughing and forgetting what that drink was that I liked so much last summer. The good thing is we all all moving forward together. That’s what family and friends are for.

I’m glad you all are my friends.

❤❤❤

Published by humoringthegoddess

I am a writer of fantasy fiction that often surrounds middle-aged women. I am a married mother of two and granny to three, a BoHo Chic kinda gal. I am recently retired and busier than when I worked 9-5. But writing and blogging is my main game.

25 thoughts on “Not in the Mood”

  11. Many Happy Returns! How blessed are we who are able to celebrate with family and friends…No matter what age we are, there will always be so much still to enjoy, to learn and add … we’re not done yet! The world awaits! ❤

    Like

  13. Happy Birthday to you! I hope you had a wonderful dinner with your family. I am so glad to be one of your blogger friends and to be moving forward with you. 💖

    Like

  17. I get what you’re saying, Claudia, and you have express it so well! I hope you’re enjoying your day.

    Like

  18. Happy Birthday. Yes, there’s no easy way out of this life. But we can and I do focus on the joys of each day, each moment. Regards to the ending: Pray for a long healthy old age and a falling-off-a-cliff type of death.

    Like

  21. I am trying to get one on Amazon Kindle as we speak. I don’t want to charge anything, but I haven’t figured out how to do that yet. Maybe I’d make money on the following ones, but this one I just want people to read. To show them what THEY can do if they take the time!

    Liked by 1 person

  23. Happy birthday. Sometimes I think getting older is a punishment for not dying. Some people accept the things that come with aging, others resent it and still other, just sigh and get on with it. I ignore it. Use it or lose it is a lie, like so many other things. But, being her is supposed to be worth it. Whether that’s true or not, remains to be seen. But yes, our glasses slowly drain to the bottom and there’s no refilling it. I truly hope you have a great birthday party with those who love you. 🙂

    Like

  24. So am I! Happy birthday ❤ I totally understand and share many of your sentiments. I sometimes wish I could do over certain timelines and yet I believe I lived as I was meant to live. How can we learn more about your books?

    blessings,

    Linda

    Like

  25. Wishing you a very Happy Birthday. There are worse things than getting older. One of them would be not getting older as that would mean you are not around anymore!! Sending birthday hugs. xo

    Liked by 1 person

Share Your Thoughts!